Hi! My name is Taylor. I was born and raised in a city in Southern Alberta called Lethbridge. I am 25 years old and only finally learning to love myself. I have struggled most of my life with terrible anxiety and depression. Most of it stemming from my childhood when a man tried to kidnap me as I was walking home. I struggled for years with my confidence, my mind, my health, alcohol and my general will to live. I was suicidal for many years. If it wasn’t for my family I wouldn’t be here right now so I am eternally grateful to them.
Recently my fiancé and I fell pregnant. I was overjoyed. Being a mother is the one thing I knew I needed in my life. The one thing I knew I would be great at. Unfortunately are happiness was short lived as I miscarried our little bundle of joy shortly after. Was it my fault? Did I do something wrong? The doctors said I hadn't but I didn’t believe them. Am I infertile? Will I ever have kids? I got home from the hospital, eyes raw and red, still wearing those cute little diaper underwear they give you.
I fell to the ground sobbing in my hallway. Why my baby? Why anyone’s baby? What did I do to deserve this? That exact moment was my rock bottom
But things have changed.
I don’t know what changed but all of the sudden things were easier. I don't know if it is the new medication I was on, what was going on at the time or the fact that I adopted fitness into my life. All I know is I found my will to live!! I am not a burden, or a mistake, or unwanted. I am loved. I am happy. I am confident. I now care about my health and well being. I take time for me. I am a photographer, an eye-lash artist, a fitness fanatic, tattoo junkie, hopeless romantic, reader, writer, volunteer, make-up and hair enthusiast, aspiring author and animal lover.
I love children and I will find a way to have my own. There’s so many things I want to (and CAN) do with my life; it is hard to choose just one. So for now I am taking life one step at a time. I just know that it took my DECIDING that I was going to be happy. That I deserved it. That I was going to do whatever it took to make it happen. That’s what got me on the right track. It took baby steps. For now, I come first. I dreamed about living like I am now. I could have never seen myself this happy. You can do it too! Never give up. Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find yourself. Be patient. Much love.
I am Taylor, a Brave Babe
I love and accept myself